As you read what I am about to write, I would ask you to do something for me. Instead of passively reading these words, I want you to actively stop whenever you feel the inspiration, and look inside yourself to see just how these words apply to you. What I have to suggest, if you take it on, may change the direction of your life. So you have been warned! If you do not want to change your life or, more to the point, take up your role of changing this planet we live on then don't read on, you will be wasting your energy.
Are you ready? Are you ready to pack up your bags of security and fear of change and take a step into the big wide world outside your comfort zones? Oh yes, you are living in a comfort zone. It may not feel comfortable to you, you may have all sorts of issues that take you out of your peace such as financial problems and relationship problems. That does not mean you haven't been living within a box created by yourself, where you have placed all your beliefs about yourself and your relationship to the world around you. Those boxes can be mighty hard to step outside.
Once outside of that box, those limitations that created the walls of the box are gone, those safety barriers against an unknown world. A baby in a crib needs those bars to stop it falling out and hurting itself. But we are no longer babes in Christ, we are full grown adults and it is high time we realize just what that means.
So maybe I am being a little over dramatic? Perhaps, but I expect I have got your attention. Let me tell you the purpose of my writing this document. There is a world out there that is not yet perfect. I say yet, because it is in an upward spiral. More and more good people are deciding to take a stand for what is right and 'fight the good cause'. But for the really big changes to happen, the world needs more of the honest, humble kind to dare to make themselves heard.
Too many movements and organizations that claim to want to make a change in the world are being run by perhaps well-meaning but ego driven leaders who leave no room for divine direction in their hearts. In politics, you will find the most prominent leaders are these types who feel they must control everything about them. These are the type who have long ago closed their hearts to God and have ruled their worlds from their intellect, even their intellectual idea of what God is. And while God can still act even through these (those times they receive flashes of inspiration and act on them), it would be much better for the world if we the 'meek' people who have no need for power or dominance but are ready to serve God fill those positions.
This is where you come in. Have you ever considered that you might have come to earth with the intention of helping to bring in the Golden Age, helping the Kingdom of Heaven be established on Earth? Maybe you have, perhaps that is why you are here reading this. I for one know what it is like to have those urges, those dreams within me but then look in the mirror and laugh at myself. How could I, little me, a no-body from no-where possibly make a difference? Then one looks at the news, sees the weight of the world's problems, and feels the hopelessness of it all. Ha! Beware of that train of thought. That is just what they want us to feel, you know.
Look at Jesus. He was just one person. Look at the Buddha, look at Ghandi. What a difference they made! What makes them any different from you? Oh sure, I know. Jesus was the Son of God. The Buddha, well, he was the Buddha! Yet I tell you, what they have done, you can do too. In fact in this day and age, you could make a better job of it. Did I just shock you? Of course I am not saying Jesus and the others did not do the best they could. But the mindset of the people they were teaching meant they were limited to what they could teach. And, they didn't have the Internet, yet their messages still spread across the world.
Yet in this day and age, imagine what you could achieve if you just dared to stand up and speak your truth, stand up and BE the son or daughter of God that you are! And then, imagine what would happen if not just you but hundreds or thousands of us started breaking out of our self imposed shells and sharing the truth as we know it!
Pay attention to inspiration
Yes, I hear you say. But how? How indeed? Well I don't think we need to don our sack cloths and sandals and wander through town and village yelling, "the Kingdom of God is near!". Although if enough of us did that, then we might get noticed. Or institutionalized. You have to pay attention to inspiration.
Ever had one of those ideas that has sat in the back of your head, but your mind has played down as being crazy because in order to realize that idea, you would have to change your life, break out, risk losing everything. And that is something we have to look at, the things we are attached to. You might have heard that in order to know the Kingdom of God, you have to lose all your attachments to this world. Buddha taught this too. This doesn't mean you have to throw out your plasma TV or your iPod, but it does mean you must be able to remain in your peace if they spontaneously combust one day.
Yet when we talk about attachments, the material attachments are not the main enemy. It is our attachments to certain beliefs, the ones that limit us or rather God in us, that must go. If you had asked me two years ago who I was, I would have answered, "I'm a nice friendly loving but quiet girl, who doesn't like to push herself into the public. I care about my friends and family, I am basically a good girl, though shy. I love to laugh and have fun and be creative." Something tells me you know someone like this. Perhaps yourself? Yet all of that, that is not who I AM. Sure a lot of it is true but it was a limiting image of myself. That girl, she might succeed in helping a few people and bringing up a loving family, but would she be able to change the world?
Read in between the lines of that statement about myself a bit. What is that about being shy. What was there there to be shy about? So I don't like to be pushy. Well, good unless that means I am an easy target to be walked over. I did not have the ability to stand up for myself.
What I was lacking was my own power. Of course the power was there, I had just caged it in long ago, because I feared it. The personalities we have today are not just a result of experiences in this life, but of our many lives over the centuries as we wander the path back home to God. And sometimes, if we are suppressing something in this life it could be because we had misused it in a past life and feared to use it again for fear of making the same mistakes.
In my search for spiritual wholeness I began peeling the onion layers of my false personality away from the true core of who I really AM. First it was revealed to me through the Holy Spirit how I had worked directly against Divine Direction in past lives, and abused my positions of power—when I held high positions in the Church—through suppressing those who went outside the bounds of Church doctrine, those who were following the winds of the Holy Spirit.
Well, that put me in shock for a while, as you might imagine. I am not sure what shocked me more, the idea I had gone against God or the idea that I had held positions of power. Well, the Comforter which is the Holy Spirit (Joh 14:26) works in subtle ways. Sometimes it tells us things that are designed to bring out those beliefs we carry that are limiting our beings, but in a way that will just exaggerate those feelings so we see them for ourselves rather than just telling us that we have those feelings. What emotion did that information trigger the most in me? Guilt.
I had not seen it before. Sure, being brought up a Roman Catholic, I was told I was a sinner. But I thought after so many years I had got over that belief. And I had, intellectually. But not in my heart. My heart was walled up with fear, and God had no chance to shine his light from within it. I needed some sharp shocks before the pieces of that wall could start to fall away. Anyway, if I were to tell the whole story here, this essay would become a book. Yet it was this guilt I had carried that was weighing me down, and my ego used it to whisper in my ear, "Not you. You are not worthy. You are not capable of doing anything big. Don't even try, don't open up to God and cause me (the ego) to lose my power over you!"
Of course this guilt has its roots in my original fall, and was probably the cause of my shutting off my heart from the Living God. I fell because I was not able to discern the false master (the serpent) from the true (the Christ within me). And knowing deep inside that I lacked discernment I must have made a decision to stick to the rule book from now on, and never go out of line. And while I was at it, I would make sure nobody else did. Yet part of me remembered that original fall, and was ashamed. I had lost my honor.
The battle zone
You have heard the term "warring in our members"? Well, that is what happened to me as a result. Part of me thought I was worthless for what I had done. Another part thought that as long as I kept up an act of sticking to rules, I could pass as acceptable. And another part of me knew who I really was, a beautiful daughter of God. Have you heard of soul fragments? That is what results from this inner war. Parts of our soul actually split off from the whole and can be stuck either in ourselves or even in other beings.
I experienced a wonderful healing after finally understanding that I had a soul fragment that carried this guilt and loss of honor. After a healing session with Lorraine Michaels where I reached out and sent my love to that part of me that felt it was worthless, I discovered my inner power again. It was a process that took time, and it is still going on now, even as I write. But that shy girl? No. I know that is not who I AM. I have discovered there is a force within me that is keeping me going, pushing me onwards because it wants to express itself through me. It wants to reach out and claim the world for God, for itself, for us! If I had remained in my little shell, I would have been limiting God. Again.
So one day I just made a decision. Not my will, but Thine be done oh Lord! I know that I of my own self can do nothing, but when I AM One with You, you can work miracles through me, if it is your Will. Then the ideas started to come, far out ideas about starting political movements. Me! Plane Jane with no real career, the girl in class that was often picked on, the one who never followed the fashions and kept herself to herself. Yeah! Why not? And why not you too?
I have looked into my heart and seen what is there. What is there? A SUN, a mighty power house, that is shining out its rays and reaching out to all of you so that you too might discover the Sun in yourself. None of Earth's illusions can stand in the way of this Sun. It will reveal the shadows on the earth, and in their uncovering, they will lose their power. We can shine through their ego lies and illusions, and the high and mighty will suddenly appear like the emperor with nothing on.
So will you stand up with me and SHINE? Perhaps you have to polish your bulbs first. Look to your psychology then and get to the cause of what is holding you back. Remember, when you limit yourself, you are limiting GOD in you. That is pretty selfish, like it or not! So if you have received inspiration to do something that could make a difference, then go out and do it, regardless of who you are. But don't get attached to the results! The Sun keeps on shining regardless of the clouds or storms underneath it. Whatever you do, BE the SUN!
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© Rebecca Östergren, Love Is.
